Alan Berecka

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About Alan Berecka

 Alan Berecka was the Poet Laureate of Corpus Christi from February 2017 - February 2019. His latest collection, The Hamlet of Stittville, is a collaboration with the New Yorker cartoonist and boyhood  friend John Klossner. Berecka earns his keep as a reference librarian at Del Mar College. His work has appeared in such publications as Red River Review, Texas Review, The Christian Century, Windhover, Ruminate, St. Peter’s B-List and Oklahoma Poems…And Their Poets.  

The Art of the Deal

My friend Pete Merkl’s dad sold copiers. 

A salesman’s salesman, the old man’s smile 

could turn any stranger into a friend. 

His patter was so smooth he could smooze 

a Temperance Leaguer into a booze 

of the month subscription. I asked 

him once why he plied his trade

selling inferior products. He told me,

“Alan, a Xerox can sell itself, but it takes

a real pro to sell an A B Dick copier.”


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Commute

How far can a fog lift

before it becomes a cloud?


Whatever it was, it hung

above the causeway,

a few feet above each car

and truck, as we drove

over the shallow end

of the Gulf, consumed

with the needs

of our daily commute.


I noticed how the gulls

and pelicans disappeared

diving up into the thickness

but thought little of it, until


I rounded the long curve

near the final exit,

and there it hung

like a shroud, completely

obscuring the upper two-thirds

of the Harbor Bridge.


While being pulled along

by the constant traffic,

I watched the countless

sets of tail lights

ascending into obscurity,

taking on faith that beyond

it still lies the bridge

into the city of Corpus Christi.


copyright Alan Berecka 

The Comic Flaw

Buy on Amazon. From the cover: Berecka's commedia is not so much divine as it is deeply human-a retrospective poetic, accompanied by a wince and a grin. Scott Cairns Author of Compass of Affection: Poems New & Selected Alan Berecka probes his blue collar roots with honesty and insight, depicting, with haunting detail and striking imagery, everything from family members who "smell of cabbage and onions" to the love "that pins us down." Ranging in tone from the elegiac to the hilarious, these impressive poems shimmer with craftsmanship, the work of a poet who takes his art seriously, who works the jagged stones of his poems until they sparkle on the page like faceted gems. Larry D. Thomas 2008 Texas Poet Laureate The hardest task of a serious writer is to be able to write funny, but Alan Berecka not only does this, he does it brilliantly. These are laugh­-out-loud funny poems on child abuse and alcoholism, profanity and prayer, via some of the most unlikely subjects: the Pope's T-shirt, the Beatles' appearance on the Ed Sullivan Show, Carl Yastrezmski, Jiffy Pop popcorn, Playboy magazine. These poems will both break your heart and alter your vision; I guarantee you will never look at the world in quite the same way again. Barbara Crooker Author, Line Dance and Radiance Berecka embraces the "flaw" without a hint of resignation-never hesitating to administer the sacrament of laughter where others might erect a wall of ridicule. This collection is a Eucharist, beginning to end. Bread and wine have their place; but the sacramental elements might just as well be baseball, popcorn, t-shirts, a puzzled Pope responding to a phrasebook reference to lost luggage-or the poet's old man flipping a bird. He has an uncanny ability to sense the presence of God in such acts, and that is a welcome invitation to take our shoes off and get comfortable on this holy ground we share. Steven Schroeder Virtual Artists Collective  

The Hamlet of Stitville

 Buy The Hamlet of Stittville on Amazon.  "There is much ado about monkey in Berecka and Klossner’s poignant and humorous search for meaning in The Hamlet of Stittsville. It’s monkeys all the way down, with Shakespearian commentary on current politicalevents mixed with the deep, personal observation we’ve come to expect in Berecka’s work. Klossner’s art offers both counterpoint and reflection in Berecka’s tongue-in-cheek universe. Together they pack a knock-out punch that will, for an infinite moment, take our minds off the baloney of our political present and give us the comical perspective necessary to enjoy our dawning days. L.A. Times Bestselling Author Stephen Jay Schwartz Alan Berecka starts with a wily premise of infinite monkeys, infinite typewriters, and time. But the monkeys are us and time is running out as sad little monkeys continue to ring the bell, hoping for a banana. And we all know what the definition of insanity is..." 

Alisa Hope Wagner

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About Alisa Hope Wagner

Alisa Hope Wagner is an award-winning author, editor and publisher of over 20 books she produces on her own label, Marked Writers Publishing. She is aggressive about leading a simple life. She married her high school sweetheart, and together they raise their three children in a Christ-centered home.
 

Though an introvert by nature, Alisa easily expresses herself through social media, especially on her blog, alisahopewagner.com. Alisa has earned her B.A. Degree in English and her M.S. Degree in Applied English Linguistics.
 

She writes both fiction and nonfiction books. She has been in two reality tv shows, fought and won an MMA Cage fight and won first place in bodybuilding--physique division.


Visit Alisa at alisahopewagner.com and find links to her books and to her posts on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, Youtube and Instagram. You can check out her books, including her award-winning YA Fantasy Fiction Violet Moon Series on Amazon

The Cure

Aryan and his older brother, Derik, have traveled far from home on a quest to find the One Tree where roots grow that can aid in their mother’s pregnancy. However, what young Aryan doesn’t realize is that the quest actually serves a different purpose. The true reason for the brothers’ journey is to find a place where Aryan can take his dying breath without transferring a contagious, terminal disease to his unborn siblings. 


Phase 4


Aryan felt his knees buckle. His legs could no longer carry the weight of his body. His lips and eyes were dried shut. The Southland winds cruelly beat across his face carrying grains of sand that scratched his cheeks. Several of the strips of dirty fabric fell from his body, but he no longer bothered trying to tighten them. The sun was no longer in the sky. Everything was black. The only color he saw was his brother’s blue eyes fastened to his memory like a promise of future happiness. 

He heard the footsteps in front of him stop. “Brother! Go on without me. I can go no further!”

“It is as I said!” Derik exclaimed. “I have found the biggest One Tree in all of the Southland. And I see Mother’s root springing up all around it. Just a little further. Hurry! Crawl toward the sound of my voice. There is shade under the great branches.” 

Aryan listened to his brother calling out. He crawled on his elbows and knees toward the voice. The arid ground scraped against his legs and arms, but he no longer cared. He only thought of going home to the open door of his cellar. His mother could go in now and stroke his hair. 

“You made it!” his brother said. “Feel the trunk of the tree. It is massive!” 

Aryan pushed up from his elbows and hugged the tree, clasping his hands tightly against the bark. The tree was wide, and his arms were spread out like the wingspan of the great eagles that fly free in the morning skies. “I feel it! We are here!” 

“Now, you rest under the tree. Try to sleep. I will get plenty of Mother’s pregnancy root. Then I am going to search for water. When I get back, we will quench our thirst and rest some more. Then we will be revived enough to journey home. Mother will be so happy to see us. She will have her family back again.”

Aryan thought of the twins in his mother’s belly. “Yes, Mother will have her whole family together.” He couldn’t help but smile. His dry lips peeled opened. “And she will no longer have need to cry. In fact, I can see her smiling at us.”

“Yes,” Derik said. “She is smiling at you. She is stroking your hair. And she is whispering prayers over you. You are sleeping now in your bed. And I am finishing up the evening chores. I take my time because I know mother likes to pet you to sleep. Do you feel it? She is petting you now.”

Aryan’s grinned widened. “Yes, I feel it.” He stopped. “I can hear her prayers too!” 

“What is she saying?” 

“She is praying that I find the One Tree, for He will take me Home.” 

“And we have found it!” 

“No, this is Another One Tree. He is the Joy.” 

“I don’t understand,” Derik said. “Who is the joy?”

“When I slept in the cellar and listened to the Walkers cry out, I heard both sadness and joy as one of their own walked into eternity. He is the joy I heard. His door is always opened to anyone who seeks Him. He is never hidden, and—look! There is water all around Him!”

“You see water?” Derik asked confused.

“Yes, I see water streaming around the One Tree like waves. And light! So much light shining from Him. And there are people and kids. They are dancing and playing! I want to go to them! Derik, can I go to them?”

“But where? I don’t see them,” Derik said, looking around the Southland. It was mid-afternoon and the hot summer sun had faded to a soft autumn glow. 

Aryan clung onto the One Tree as he tried to look over his shoulder toward his brother’s voice. He saw only darkness. He returned his gaze to the One Tree and rested his cheek against the smooth bark. The One Tree bright. And the water was blue like his brother’s eyes. And the clothing of the people was clean and colorful. He wanted to go to them. “And look! It is Ryun! I see him. He is waving to me. He wants to play. Derik! Derik! Can I go to him? Please!”

“Yes, but what should I tell Mother? She will want to know why you did not return home.”

Aryan spoke but kept his cheek against the bark of the One Tree. His torso pressed up against it, and he embraced as much of it as he could in his outstretched arms. “Tell her that I finally heard her prayers. Tell her that I have found the place she wanted me to find. Tell her that I met the Cure.” 

Derik said nothing. Aryan knew his brother was considering his words, but he didn’t want to wait anymore. Ryun beckoned for him to come, so they could play. Aryan finally got up from the tree, leaving the filthy strips of fabric behind. He was ready to go Home.

Derik watched his brother’s body collapse onto the ground. The weight he carried finally lifted. He reached into the folds of his filthy, tattered tunic and pulled out the flagon of water his mother had forced him to carry. He had refused it at first, but now his shaking hands ripped off the lid. He brought the tip of the bottle to his lips and drank deeply. He poured every ounce of liquid down his throat. The moisture soothed his parched mouth and revived his soul. He had finished his Mother’s quest. He had brought Aryan Home.

Allyson Chavez Larkin

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About Allyson Chavez Larkin

Allyson Chavez Larkin is a family physician specializing in wound care. She lives in Corpus Christi, Texas with her unfailingly patient husband, a Midwest transplant who still cannot get used to the heat, and three lovely children who are turning into amazing people right in front of her eyes. She reads and writes voraciously in her spare time. Middle grade and young adult fiction are her guilty pleasures.  

Jesus Lopez Mows His Lawn

Jesus Lopez mows his own lawn. So do I of course. So do most of us; but Mr. Lopez is paraplegic. 

Twenty-five years ago, a bullet lodged in Jesus Lopez’s back severing the neurologic connection between his spine and legs. Now no signal reaches the muscles below his waist. Paralysis and deformity ensued. His feet are contracted and twisted upside down so that they look like curved bowls -- no good for walking or even standing for that matter. So, Mr. Lopez mows his yard in his wheelchair. 

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Mr. Lopez’s home health nurse keeps calling me, complaining that his dressings are dirty or have fallen off when she goes out to care for him three times a week. She can’t figure out why. So this visit I’ve got to have a “heart to heart” with him about his role in the healing process.

“Mr. Lopez, you won’t heal unless you are compliant with our wound care plan. If your dressings are dirty or wet when the home nurse sees you, you will never heal.”

“Sorry Doctora.” That is what he calls me. “I think it might be the mowing. I’ll tie a grocery bag on my foot from now on to keep the bandage clean.”

“Mowing? How do you manage that?”

“I pull my chair right up next to the mower so I can pull the crank at the same time I squeeze the start paddle on the handle.”

“It’s a push mower?” I cannot believe what I am hearing.

“You bet, self-propelled. Once I get it started, the mowing is easy.”

I shake my head.

“I pull my chair up behind the mower and push it with my left hand. I drive the wheelchair with my right.”

“That doesn’t sound safe,” I say as I inspect the horseshoe-shaped ulcer on top of his right foot, which due to his contractures, is actually resting on the footplate of his wheelchair. 

“I tie that belt around my legs to keep them from flopping if I hit a rut.” Mr. Lopez points to a frayed brown leather belt draped on the edge of his seat. A jagged tear in the cushion has been repaired with silver duct tape and a shopping bag chock full of gear -- a sack lunch, an umbrella, a blanket -- hangs off the handles. “I’ve never had a bit of trouble.”

The wound is pink and shallow. It looks like it should heal right up; but never does. It is maddening. “Dirt and debris getting into your dressing isn’t doing your foot much good either,” I say.

“I have to do it, Doctora. I have a big yard and if I don’t keep it cut, the city will fine me $75. I’m not made of money. ”

That’s true. He gets to my office by bus, but unlike a lot of my bus patients, he is never late. I should have Mr. Lopez give a class: “How to Master Public Transportation and Arrive On Time.” I didn’t even know he took the bus until one day I ran so late that I made him miss the last pick-up. He had to borrow the phone at the front desk to shift around for someone to pick him up. 

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“Jesus Lopez’s mother died,” my medical assistant warns me before I go in for our next visit. 

“I'm so sorry, Mr. Lopez,” I say as I look at his foot. 

“Thank you Doctora. I miss her. We were very close, but she was old. It was her time.” 

“You lived with her?” 

“Yes, just her and I. The house is very quiet now.”

“How are you managing? Have you had to move?”

“Doctora,” Mr. Lopez pauses waiting until I look up and give him my full attention. “My mother couldn’t get out of bed this last year. I managed to take care of her. I sure can take care of myself.”

I blush. This is the closest to an angry word I have ever had from Mr. Lopez, and I deserve every bit of it. I’ve been treating him for a year, but I don't understand a thing about his life.

“I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean -- I just assumed.” I struggled for words. I did not want to offend this man, always so courteous and patient. “But how do you possibly manage? It’s not just your paralysis, but your feet. You can’t even -- ”

“Doctora. I got shot over twenty years ago -- and it was pretty much my own fault. For a few weeks I thought all about ‘I can’t.’ I couldn’t get out of my mind all the things I would never do. But then I decided, ‘Hey, I’m alive. The Lord is not done with me.’ So, every day I just do everything I can do.”

I am humbled and have no response. 

“So I took care of my mother. I owed her that. She gave me life and I wasn’t gonna put her in a nursing home.”

“You’re like MacGyver,” I say. 

“Oh Doctora,” Mr. Lopez laughs, “I love that show.”

I have an idea. “Do you think if I put home health on hold, you can figure out how to you reach down to your foot and dress the wound yourself everyday?”

“I’ll find a way if you tell me what I need to do.”

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“Jesus Lopez is healed.” My medical assistant moon walks in the hall outside Mr. Lopez’s room at his follow up appointment two weeks later. 

I walk into the room, hoping but not convinced. I shine the spotlight on his foot. Indeed there is a thin, translucent layer of pink tissue over the wound.

“Mr. Lopez, you are healed.” I can’t help but grin. 

“I thought you’d like that, Doctora. Thank you for healing me.”

“Mr. Lopez, are you kidding? You did it. I’m just sorry I didn’t have you change your own dressings months ago.”

“That’s OK, Doctora. You always did your best. Sometimes it takes trying different things before you get them right.”

Copyright Allyson Chavez Larkin

Ana Varela

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About Ana Varela

Ana Varela lived in Los Angeles, Buenos Aires, and Taipei before moving to Corpus Christi, and then to Denver. She has proudly worked at a domestic violence shelter, as a paralegal at a non-profit immigration law firm, and spends her free time finding volunteer families for international students. She is a freelance writer, cultural consultant, and host of the Corpus Culture Fest. Her work has been featured in anthologies, and she was a board member and panelist at the 2019 People’s Poetry Festival. 

Shelter for Her

Pacing back in forth in the lobby of a women's shelter

she paused at the paperwork, looked at the baby and felt that no one could help her.

She lifted her daughter, flipped up her hoodie and walked back into the blur.

Pacing back and forth in the lobby of a women's shelter

she paused at the paperwork, paused at the baby and noticed the same day on the calendar.

She lifted that baby, and she put her back down and tried to remember where they were.

Pacing back and forth where they said that they can help her

she paused at the thermostat, thought about smoking crack

and wondered where she could get hers.

She flipped up her hoodie, flipped it back down-

She couldn't feel the right temperature.

Pacing back and forth, wondering about her worth

She looked past the paperwork, stared at the floor

and saw her crawling daughter.

She lifted that baby, walked back into the blur and felt that no one could help her.

My Desert Jay

The valley knew that it would change my life forever. The longer that I spent in it, the more sure I was of where I needed to be. Nothing could be the same after that summer in the desert. 

I met Jay in the three days that I spent at the end of spring in the Joshua Tree dessert. I would not leave for good until the come and go of a year of seasons. If I was once a seed I had grown into a mesquite, and I was finally enjoying my shade. Before, I had wandered content, well-nourished from the freedom of decisions that had led me to this event. When I reached the desert, I gave in to a restful time and listened, for once, to the message of a music festival. If “music is the soul of life” then the desert is the body from which energy might manifest as humming, the vibrations as song. I met my Jay in Joshua Tree, and, one day, I flew away with him.

My first winter with Jay was a high-desert January and a world of wonder. I drove the three hours from Los Angeles, as I had done so many times throughout the summer, to reach our paradise in the desert. The last hour of the drive, heading up the mountain after a windmill valley, was hard on the car but easy on the mind. I passed the small but popular Joshua Tree city, catering to the tourists that came from around the world to visit the national park, the businesses boutique with faux-desert facades. Farther up the road Twentynine Palms -- an even smaller bucolic town that most only know if they have heard of the military base. Two different cities, like two very different beasts, feeding on that which keeps them growing. Turning off the main street there, I drove for a quarter of an hour more as the asphalt turned into dirt road. Not too far in the distance, with its red stripe around its side, the 1970’s El Rey camper was my minds favorite sight. I imagined that I could hear Jay's small dog panting as he listened for my tires driving up the property. I was moments from Jay's smile and feeling the weight of the wine glass in my hand.

The sky in winter matched Jay’s eyes -- a crisp and clean bright, blue grey. By morning, I was happy to be in the El Rey, warmed by the closeness of our bodies. If this had been August, the camper would be empty by midday, and we would be somewhere else searching for shade. Winter called for a noontime wandering. When the morning freeze had melted under the sun, we set out from our cozy home. Imitating the flower buds of the cacti around us, we wrapped up in layered bundles, bursting with anticipation for spring. Vast and limitless, ours was the most beautiful backyard in the world. Except for the few trails we had worn around the property, we explored in a new direction every day. There was every shape of twisting branch discovered for each pairless shoe found. When the afternoon warmed enough, we stopped anywhere in a greasewood bush field to drink wine, laugh, and watch as the stars appeared. 

The Joshua Tree seemed the greatest teacher, the desert the greatest classroom. For it to survive, the Joshua Tree gave parts of itself to the desert; fruit for the sloth (extinct to humans) and seeds for Yucca Moth larvae to eat. When the flowers bloom in spring, the appreciative moth pollinates other trees. It is a thousand year old dance of coevolution. The philosophy of the Joshua Tree was simple; keep only that which you need to survive and a partner to help you grow- the rest is too heavy to carry. 

Jay had a bird’s eye view of the world, and could see farther than I ever could alone. He could see where the wind would blow, dropping pieces of desert trash and treasures in a secret sand bowl. It was a long valley, hidden between a row of small mountains and sand dunes. Burnouts and storms and time had turned parts into pieces and sections to shreds. Collecting our favorite fragments of broken plates, plastics, and metals, Jay and I spent afternoons creating our mosaics. Longing for a body of water, the sound of a crashing wave, or the salt saturated spray of ocean mist, he brought a sea creature to life in the dry desert. With teeth of glass and shotgun shells for scales a devilish angler fish appeared from the sand. Once, a friend, stopping in our desert on a roadtrip across the country, painted a monarch over a wide boulder in our secret mosaic sand bowl. Before him, that boulder had looked like an abandoned Volkswagen bug in the distance. Then, it was as if the butterfly had flown swiftly into the side of the boulder and left her color splattered all over the sand. So vast, in fact, was this mosaic valley, that when we returned to find the massive monarch, with a wingspan twice as large as mine, she seemed to have flown off. Perhaps the Volkswagen had suddenly driven away. 

Nothing dies in the desert. A seemingly dry greasewood, when its bare branch snaps, reveals a jade green center, ready to feed the new leaves of spring. If something begins to lose life, it crumbles over the sands' surface and smooths to preservation becoming an important particle of the ever growing land. Everything becomes the desert again. 

The first time I crashed a motorcycle I fell into the soft embrace of the desert. The deep trail behind me snaked its way more sharply the closer to where I lay. Jay hadn’t seen me yet. I didn’t want him to think that I was hurt. I unburied myself from the sand and, despite the pain in my shin, walked over to the other side of the little red Honda to pull it up. By the time Jay had noticed, I was loading onto the bike again. I only fell once more that day as we were leaving the mosaic valley, burying my front tire into the side of one of the dunes. Again the snickering snake led to exactly the point where I was splayed across the sand. 

Summer had gone months before but the grab of its rays still burned like yesterday in our memories. Each blazing day of that season, when the rocks and the trees and the mountains began to see their shadows, we set off on another ride. The buzzing motorbikes echoed through the canyons we explored. The world hummed to the tune of our adventures. Eager for curious visitors and luring us in with their shade, we rode up to the mouth of the hungry caves. Abandoned mines that had no notion of time. It would be weeks before the next desert riders would find them again. Leaving behind the cold and burning superheated summer surface world to the lizards, we walked into the earth and entered the cool, endless darkness. Deep blue turquoise streaks lined the inside of the otherwise rough earth; perfect lines of oxidized copper led us deeper and deeper inside. 

Like Plato's allegory of the cave, I wondered if my high-desert stories made sense to many city dwellers or the strictly social media savants. Would they see the value in the voids or the expanses of the desert? How might I convey the worth in the woe of an abandoned mine? After allowing our internal temperatures to drop, and our inner thoughts to cool and calm, we wander back to see how the sand of the summer had changed. Time is measured by the sun, and it waits for no one. 

We were never lost following the cooing and whispering hints of the wind, then the allure of the light. Emerging from the mine, we were enveloped in a warm embrace by the two; the sky and the sun welcomed us again. Unlike a city, where the alleys at night should be avoided, this world would not punish me for walking into the darkness. 

Regardless of the season, each morning my eyes were opened by the gentle kiss of sunrise, calling for me to come outside to face the rising Ra. These 2,700 feet above sea level are pure -- similar to starving the muscles for oxygen, so does the elevation strengthen the soul. There is little room for the toxic smog of my mind that I bring with me from the city each drive and soon it is all taken away by the very same wind the urges me forward. I must have followed that very wind to that Spring festival that took me away with Jay forever. Each day in the desert since then, we did as the animals did and looked to find shade at noon otherwise, we would be bake in that retro and aluminum camper. We had to move or risk withering away as I once did on the third day that I had met my Jay.

I was falling in love with a blue Jay, and distracted I forgot to drink water, to eat, or to sleep under the stars. So, I unknowingly was fading away until I finally fainted. Catching me, as if I were a seed, Jay took me under his wing and placed me in the shade of my desert realty; there is no room for toxicity, remember the lessons of the Joshua Tree; only take what you need, and he chose to take me, the rest was too heavy to carry.

While in that daze of those days, I remembered the day Jay firmly dodged the first time I reached for his chin. In a tent booth full of precious gems and crystals, he was the most captivating -- the most valuable thing. Resonating over the entire Joshua Tree valley, the festival music enveloping the tent seemed muffled and low to the mocking Jay’s song. Would he believe that we would spend so many sunrises together in this very desert? Or riding home each sunset before the darkness could envelop the two of us on our motorbikes? One day, although it was sudden, we would fly away. We were unlike the valley’s ephemeral blooms, destined instead to flower forever. Nothing was the same after that summer in the desert and, after a year of seasons, we flew away together, my desert Jay and I.

Brandon Cantu and Melinda Cantu

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About Brandon and Melinda Cantu

Brandon Cantu was given a school assignment in creative writing when he was 6 years old. He and his mother, Melinda Cantu, chose to use a porcupine as subject material based on a TV documentary they had seen.  

Quillan Control Your Temper

This is a story about a porcupine named Quillan. Quillan was a very nice porcupine except he had one big problem. Quillan could not control his temper.

Every day he would play baseball with his friends. When it was his turn to bat if the pitcher would strike him out he would get so MAD! Quillan would arch his back, tighten his muscles and his quills would stand straight up. His friends were so afraid to get close to him for fear of being stuck with one of his quills that they would all run away. 

This made Quillan very sad.

 He went home and told his Mom, “No one wants to play with me.”

His Mom said, “Quillan you have to CONTROL YOUR TEMPER!”

“But Mom how do I control my temper?”

"Try counting to ten.”


Copyright Brandon Cantu and Melinda Cantu


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David Pinkerd

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About David Pinkerd

David Pinkerd grew up in Corpus Christi. He went to Driscoll Junior High. He also served in Vietnam in 1972. After returning home, he started several businesses. 

Forty Seven Years Ago

Forty seven years ago this week, I returned from Southeast Asia. The "anniversary" kind of sneaked up on me. I guess guys who experienced that or similar, including our young troops now, get the same sense you no longer belong.
If I live another forty seven years, I won't lose that feeling. It's not really a bad feeling just the awareness you aren't the same person and the folks who stayed here are. Hard to explain but I can understand why guys who return from the Middle East (or the countless other places they are in harms way) do not readily assimilate - or probably even want to. It's not the killing or even the personal danger necessarily, but they are part of something huge and important then the switch is turned off and they aren't. I guess it's like a serious divorce. you can't go back to who you were before the marriage.
Forty seven years is a long time for a guy once voted "Most Likely to not Reach 21". 

Esther Bonilla Read

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About Esther Bonilla Read

Esther Bonilla Read was born and raised in Calvert, Texas, a small town in Central Texas. She graduated from Baylor University and began teaching school in Corpus Christi, Texas. This became home for her and her husband Nolan K. Read and their four children. She writes on a variety of subjects: her family; school; and of various incidents that have occurred in her life. She has been published by various newspapers; Chicken Soup for the Latino Soul and several anthologies and magazines. Her Book From the Porch Steps is available on Amazon 

MOTHER AND THE GYPSIES

My mother was a product of the Great Depression. People of her era know exactly what I mean. For those of you who are younger, allow me to elaborate.

Mother knew what it was not to have one cent in the home. She knew what it was to have a husband come into the home and say, “I lost my job, and so did everyone else at the business.”

Not only did Mother know what it was like not to have any money, but she also experienced having hungry children waiting to be fed and not understanding why a bowl of oatmeal was not forthcoming. She had neighbors who were also hungry. 

But, she told me, she had friends (comadres) who lived out in the country and came into town in wagons from time to time and brought her vegetables and some meat from a recently slaughtered pig. My mother and father even moved out to a farm for a while during the Depression to try to make a living out there, but Daddy, a former city boy, couldn’t tolerate it.

And in a few years the Depression lifted like a dark cloud that mysteriously disappears.

Daddy was called back to work and life became normal for the small family. Then the war came and again, items were scarce, but at least everyone seemed to be employed.

But my mother never forgot her experiences. She saved all things every opportunity she had. And she was resourceful. She made her own lye soap. She saved feathers when a chicken was slaughtered and made pillows. We were taught to mend clothes. Everything was used and then recycled before we knew what the word meant...

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On Pedestals

Several years ago a nice woman wrote something like the following in the newspaper: Why do women argue for Equal Rights? Men place them on pedestals and there is no need to fight for equality.

Well, Folks, I have searched high and low for that pedestal, and I have never located it. Like the elusive "Fountain of Youth" for which Ponce De Leon searched and didn't find, so it is with me and the pedestal.

I am through looking.

copyright Esther Read

The Lesson

It was right before Christmas, and we fifth graders in Mrs. Pietsch’s classroom were an excited group of chattering students. WWII was over. It was now peace time, and it was a time to be happy.

Most students in our school didn’t have an abundance of material things, but we didn’t know that. And the students who had the least were the children of itinerant or sharecropping farm workers. Some came to school barefooted. Others wore the same clothes over and over. No matter how much starch the mother used before she ironed the girls’ dresses, they were the same ones worn week after week.

Suddenly midst the chatter we heard our teacher Mrs. Pietsch raise her voice. She told us to be quiet as she had an announcement. She asked, “Who took a five dollar bill out of my purse?”

Everyone was quiet. We looked at one another with questioning faces. Only the voice of two students walking down the hallway could be heard. Some students in our class whispered to one another. Two or three chairs scraped the floor. Then one boy laughingly said, “Ben took it.” I knew my brother Ben didn’t take anything from anyone. He never would.

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From the Porch Steps

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Brothers discuss philosophy on Facebook

Last two months I've been writing away on a theology book, with the two main thinkers being Agamben and Vico (with hearty doses of Augustine thrown in), and was about at 100 pages. But even though I thought I was moving along swimmingly, I basically hit a brick wall when I dipped into Neoplatonism and especially Plotinus' concept of the One, and how all this does or does not hook up with Christianity. Uh, the whole thing started sliding off the cliff into an abyss, I mean all the extra work needing to get up to speed to hang with all the historical and analytical elements, especially the strange metaphysical stuff. (Oh, on that subject also the mysticism of the Kabbalah to boot, more pain and extra work to deal with.) It's really hopeless, but perhaps over the years I can dribble out more and perhaps make a book of it. But when you string out writing over a long time it's hard to keep it focused. Anyway, this will be the long-term side project occupying my time for the foreseeable future.

  • William Chriss This is because Neoplatonism confronted you with over a thousand years of Greek and near eastern monotheism that culminates in eastern Christianity, which is essentially a completely different animal from western thinking that runs from Augustine to Agamben. I suggest you read the first chapter of the gospel of John (in Greek if possible), and then reflect on how the Logos theology relates to all this.1Hide or report this
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    • James J. ChrissJames J. Chriss Bill, well you're the true theologian in the family, so I will take up your recommendation. I guess I discovered something you already knew years ago: When you immerse yourself in law, like what I did in writing this law and society book, you are forced to confront the theological to (try) to make sense of the legal. In my training in sociology and criminology, I hardly received a whiff of theology, so I have a lot of catching up to do. 
    • William ChrissWilliam Chriss you will take to it quickly because once you begin, all the various bits and pieces will fall into place in ways they have not before. The writings of Basil the Great, Maximus the confessor, and Gregory Palamas are helpful in seeing how radically the eastern mystical understanding of divinity departs from western legalism1Hide or report this
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  • William ChrissWilliam Chriss If you go to the Facebook page of Sandra leslie white ministries you can find a 15minute video where I discuss this in the spring of 2019.

Johnny Jebsen

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About Johnny Jebsen

Who is Johnny Jebsen, and why does he keep emailing me?

Florida is a nice place to visit

Florida is nice place to visit, but I never want to live there."

If you want to understand Florida, you have to first accept that anyone who lives in Florida is not from Florida. You're either old and running for a tax shelter or you're running away from something you didn't like. We're all castaways here. We're all pirates of some sort. Canadians and New York Jews abound -- a contact zone of cultures, Pittsburgh and New Jersey settlements. Lots of trailer parks fly Canadian flags.

I live in New Port Richey that is a bedroom community of the Tarpon area that comes under the heading of North Tampa, and whose town mayor was just arrested for practicing medicine without a license. He even fired shots at the police who came banging down his door to arrest him the other night.

Yeah. All pirates here! Here in Florida, they call me Papillon.

Every day Johnny drives to work

Every day Johnny drives to work in the long line of bumper to bumper traffic with other suburbanites of lesser neighborhoods making their way to work. Real Floridians love Jesus and kitsch but don't eat quiche. Real men love their guns, always sure to stroke it clean and keep it oiled. They imagine themselves "going in" and shooting "foreign invaders," too.

"Where is the sense of things?" Johnny often asks his radio, but the radio never offers solution. It only talks.

There are few things that make sense in the world, and one of them is just being with the ones you love.

My Memorable Remnants

My memorable remnants are few. Not so much for my lack of mental capacity but for the small and focused nature of my background.

As a 4 month old child I was left at the door step of a Monastery; hence, parent-less, without a history I was -- though I had never known it -- turned over to Monastery of the Order of Sanctus Sicario, or what is the Holy Assassins of the Holy Catholic Church.

That no history exists, that nothing has been recorded precludes not that it ever doubtfully existed, but that we were so well hidden.

Here now is my story.


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Jose Olivares

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About Jose Olivares

Jose Olivares was born in Corpus Christi. He graduated from Roy Miller High School, and the University of Texas at Austin, Texas A&I University Kingsville, and Texas A&M University Corpus Christi. He worked as a secondary mathematics teacher, middle school principal and Corpus Christi Independent School District mathematics consultant and as adjunct professor of mathematics at Texas A&M CC. Jose and his wife Tomacita have three children who are also graduates of UT Austin. Their daughter Liana Gonzales is an attorney in Corpus Christi and daughter Mariela Olivares is also at attorney and law school professor at Howard University in Washington DC. Their son Jose Luis is a graphic computer artist in Portland, Oregon. They have four grandchildren.   

Please Close the Windows

“Please close the windows, the air is burning my face” my younger sister cried as we drove to California seeking work as migrant workers. My parents had loaded the family (five children ages 17, 15, 13, 10, 4) into the car and headed cross country to the Bakersfield area. Two older siblings did not join us—one was married and the other was serving in the U.S. Army. I was 15.

Our car did not have air conditioning, but the desert air blowing into the car was so hot that we alternated closing and opening the windows. My Mother would constantly place a wet towel over my Father’s head and shoulder in order to cool his body.

We worked picking grapes, peaches, potatoes and tomatoes. Our home was in one of the many labor camps in the area. Our shelter was a metal structure that felt like a furnace in the hot summer days. Our shelter had no electricity, running water or bathroom facilities. Group facilities were available for our use. 

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Juan Perez

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About Juan Perez

Juan Manuel Pérez, a Mexican-American poet of indigenous descent and the current Poet Laureate for Corpus Christi, Texas (2019-2020), is the author of numerous books. He is a ten-year Navy Corpsman/Combat Marine Medic with experience in the 1991 Persian Gulf War with the 2nd Marines and the 1992 Hurricane Andrew Relief Marine Air Group Task Force. This two-time Teacher of the Year, along with his wife, Malia (a three-time Teacher of the Year), is a co-founder of The House of the Fighting Chupacabras Press. Currently, Juan worships his Creator, teaches public high school history, writes poetry, and chases chupacabras in the Texas Coastal Bend Area. 

The Inauguration Of Alan Berecka, Inaugural Poet Laureate Of Corpus Christi, 2017

God is Good! God is Great! God is Awesome!


I.

Ladies, Gentlemen, Public School Teachers,

Wise Professors, Students of Poetry, 

PHD Carrying Wal Mart Leaders,

Great Citizens of Nueces County,

All of you present here this very night

A man once said, “Come to Corpus Christi.

I will put you and your words on display 

Among those I know here in this city.”

So eventually I came to this coast

Tonight, I am tasked to introduce him

I say of him, as Kirk would say of Spock,

“Of all the souls I've encountered on my 

travels, his was the most...human.” Indeed

“But good words; that’s where ideas begin. …

Maybe you should listen to them,” I did


II.

A greater poet among great poets

Grand enabler of versification

Facilitator of bards yet to be

The soul of Shakespeare in this century

Grand things and much more can be thought of him

But he will play it off as nothing said

For in this façade of a common man

Rages the poet against his machines 

Like Scotty working poetic engines 

Expecting finesse in understanding 

All the right words in all the right phases 

Going where poems have never gone before

That is this man, my friend, and my brother

Kindred poet of a different mother 


III.

I do love him, but this is no love poem

These are verses of honor, gratitude

Celebration of this prize of passage

For the best and first among us all here

Despite my rants of ethnic brown issues 

Obvious tortilla alliterations 

Chupacabras and pesky wall builders

Our bond has become stronger through the years

Yet we are the same despite differences

Like our love for great women and monkeys

For Mexican food, football, and cold beer

For soda pop, polkas, and poetry 

With reason, I say these words to you now

In some fear that you might never hear them


IV.

One day we will be only memory

To this end, the poet is duly cursed

Yet our words left behind will outweigh us

Fulfilling needs of many who read us

Don’t bother to grieve, it is logical,

Like flowers: here today, gone tomorrow

Yet crafted words remain printed in books

Choose the right ones to say and take the rest

For now we revel in celebration

As we partake in this, a great honor

This city’s very first Poet Laureate

What a wonderful thing it is to witness

And with that I close as I remind you: 

I have been and always shall be your friend.

Lisa Mason

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About Lisa Mason

Lisa Mason has published ten novels, including Summer of Love, a San Francisco Chronicle Recommended Book and Philip K. Dick Award Finalist, The Gilded Age, a New York Times Notable Book and New York Public Library Recommended Book, a collection of previously published short fiction, Strange Ladies: 7 Stories, and thirty-three stories and novellas in magazines and anthologies worldwide. Her Omni story, “Tomorrow’s Child,” sold outright as a feature film to Universal Pictures and is in active development. She recently published seven books in print and as ebooks on all retailers worldwide including Summer of Love, The Gilded Age, The Garden of Abracadabra, Arachne, Cyberweb, One Day in the Life of Alexa, and Strange Ladies: 7 Stories. You can find all links, reviews, and the covers on the Lisa Mason website at http://www.lisamason.com 

November 11 is also my mother's birthday

November 11 is also my mother’s birthday. Ruth would be ninety-four today. I spent the first years after her death being really angry at how cold and cruel she could be to me. She had a brother who had died of a fever before she was born and her own father used that as an excuse to become a vicious, violent alcoholic. I only learned of this when I was in my late thirties. We were out to dinner at a nice restaurant in San Francisco and had had a couple glasses of wine. That’s the first time she told me a little bit about her childhood. I sympathized but I still had a lot of anger toward her.  
These days, I remember how she made a beautiful home for us, how she loved good food and was an accomplished cook, how she loved beautiful clothes, jewelry, and makeup, how she loved reading fiction and gave me books for Christmas when I was a child, books (the four-book Mary Poppins set, Charlotte’s Web, The Secret Garden, The Golden Book of Dog, Cat, and Horse Stories (a Newbury Award-winner), a gorgeously illustrated Jungle Books) that I still have in my collection, books that remain some of my favorite books in the world. She loved cats, horses, and dogs. When my father was alive, she and he traveled throughout the world. After he died, she and a friend also traveled widely. She and her friend even went to the Amazon!  
She went back to work when I was five and safely tucked into kindergarten, continuing her career as a dietician during a time when few, if any of my friends’ mothers worked fulltime. I was a latch-key kid, but she totally trusted me to come home from school, start on my homework or do household chores. Her efforts made our family’s life much better.  
I’ve realized how all of the things she loved I love too except traveling. She instilled in me a work ethic and ambition and a sense of purpose.  
So Happy Ninety-fourth Birthday, Mom. I really miss you.
copyright Lisa Mason

Drove up to the garden store

Drove up to the garden store to buy potting soil for Groot. I love to drive and have terribly missed driving my excellent car since the violent criminal attack on me. I can step into the driver’s seat in the normal way instead of sitting first, swiveling, and lifting my legs in, one by one. Sunny warm day, short but satisfying drive. I refrained from driving around the lake past the scene of the crime. Not yet, not yet.
The garden store is wonderful with a spacious open-air garden behind the store where they sell trees and all kinds of plants. I didn’t have time to browse since we found a one-pound potting soil bag and Tom, carrying the bag, wanted to go. But I saw three crows, several pigeons and finches, and a squirrel meandering through a shelf of flowering plants. I told the checker, “You’ve got a squirrel walking through the flowers.” She glanced back over her shoulder through the window and said, “Oh, yeah. He’s our little friend.” Then we walked two blocks over to the small market, which used to be our primary market before the Big Market moved into the neighborhood. The small market’s deli counter is even better than the Big Market’s, and I bought several delicious things. The small market has a great selection of organic vegetables, too; I found baby bok choy, which I couldn’t find at the Big Market. Didn’t buy it today; that’s for broccoli stir-fry, which is not on the menu plan this week. But the next time broccoli is on the menu, I will go up to the small market for baby bok choy.
The one shadowy spot in the sunny afternoon was our checker—this is the grumpy checker with a baby daughter who totally opened up to me after I bought corn starch powder and cuetips (that’s another story). Today she was coughing—cough cough cough COUGH cough cough cough! She hid her face in the sleeve of her sweater, but still. She handled all our food. Shouldn’t she have stayed home? Or the store have asked her to stay home and pay her for a sick day?
When we got home, we carefully washed our hands (I spray mine with 91% alcohol, afterwards), and I wiped down our food with more alcohol. I haven’t a cold or flu in five or six years, don’t intend to get sick for a long time to come. (Recovering from the violent criminal attack on me still goes on.)
Altogether, a very pleasant day. I’m coming to appreciate the small things in life even more. 

July 4th

July 4, 468 moons ago, my next-door neighbors and I opened up the doors to our penthouse apartments in the Noe Valley neighborhood of San Francisco and had a Fourth of July blow-out bash. Hundreds of people showed up, wandered from my apartment to theirs, and had a great time. I shut my Siamese cat, Sita, in my bedroom, and posted a DO NOT ENTER sign. No one disturbed her.

On my coffee table I’d placed a book I was reading and was excited about—a bestselling book called The Dancing Wu Li Masters by Gary Zukav, who (it turned out) lived in the North Beach neighborhood of San Francisco at the time. The book is a lively presentation of quantum physics and has amusing illustrations.

At around midnight in walked a tall, lanky, red-headed guy who had traveled across town from North Beach at the invitation of one of my neighbors.

He was Tom Robinson, the illustrator of The Dancing Wu Li Masters! He and Gary knew each other. Later, he illustrated my novel, Summer of Love, which was first published by Bantam, and drew the cover for the Bast Books edition now in print.

Quantum magic in real life! We’ve been together ever since. We married on July 7 and had our first date on July 14. (That COULD have been the wave/particle effect, but the marriage was in a later year.) He’s my soul mate, the love of my life, my best friend, and partner in all our creative endeavors.

Have a Happy Fourth of July!